So...we are taking the plunge. I was very apprehensive about letting my little boy grow up too fast. Sending him into the big bad school system is scary for mommy, so I want to keep him home as long as possible. Yeah, something changed in me. Could be his totally wild behavior, our bordum or just my sheer need for him to share his time and energy with another. Nonetheless, I am conseeding to Matts original idea and sending Patrick to preschool next year.
Tomorrow we are checking out Joyful Noise preschool in Black Diamond. Perfect name for my little man. As a pair we make a lot of it! Add Jaden into the mix and we have us a chorus! He is so excited to see it and even more excited to start going to school in the fall.
He has been potty training, in preparation for his big adventures in preschool. He is doing so well. He has barely had any accidents and LOVES pull-ups. He tells me almost every time he has to go, even if we are in the car, at a restraunt, at naptime...when and wherever. I am so proud of my little man. He is making himself ready for his new journey into boyhood.
I really feel like, more than ever, I see that he needs time outside of our house. He is an independent spirit and thrives on adventure and fun. This will do so much for his little spirit. I know we will turn many new corners by taking this leap...scary as it is. :)
Off to preschool we go. In three months, that is. :)
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Monday, June 15, 2009
Power of a praying husband!
Not 24 hours after my last post love became a thought that dwelt deep in the back of my mind. Matt came home Thur after grocery shopping for our family camping trip. I was seriously overcome with frustration at this act of service on my behalf. (the only part of camping I like is eating, so I was thrilled to shop for our trip) I was frustrated he shopped and even more frustrated that I didn't have a list, so he didn't get half the things we needed. Needless to say, we had a quiet night with little communication about anything. That trailed, as it always does, into Friday.
As we drove to our camping destination, I shared my post with him. I shared how I had been wrestling with God since Thur. evening about my hunger to love in a new way and my frustration that little things get in the way. I didn't and don't understand how circumstances can so badly mangle the things within and change around what is good and make is sour. I prayed and prayed and prayed about this Thur. evening and Friday morning, with no reprieve from myself. I couldn't take it anymore. We were nearing our camping location and I didn't want this to carry into our weekend, especially since we were camping with his whole family. (The place I want to love beyond myself in the worst way) I asked him to pray with me and for me. Well, I told him I needed that and needed him to initiate that more. He did and INSTANTLY the load was lifted, the wrestling stopped and peace was found in me. Seriously wish I would have thought of that before 24 hours of chaos took place. :)
Nonetheless, his prayers brought me out of a place I didn't want to be, a place of discord, not love and kindness. He prayed with me a couple more times over the weekend, by his own leading and blessed me beyond measure.
The battle continues to walk in love...thankfully my man of prayer is fighthing with me. :)
As we drove to our camping destination, I shared my post with him. I shared how I had been wrestling with God since Thur. evening about my hunger to love in a new way and my frustration that little things get in the way. I didn't and don't understand how circumstances can so badly mangle the things within and change around what is good and make is sour. I prayed and prayed and prayed about this Thur. evening and Friday morning, with no reprieve from myself. I couldn't take it anymore. We were nearing our camping location and I didn't want this to carry into our weekend, especially since we were camping with his whole family. (The place I want to love beyond myself in the worst way) I asked him to pray with me and for me. Well, I told him I needed that and needed him to initiate that more. He did and INSTANTLY the load was lifted, the wrestling stopped and peace was found in me. Seriously wish I would have thought of that before 24 hours of chaos took place. :)
Nonetheless, his prayers brought me out of a place I didn't want to be, a place of discord, not love and kindness. He prayed with me a couple more times over the weekend, by his own leading and blessed me beyond measure.
The battle continues to walk in love...thankfully my man of prayer is fighthing with me. :)
Thursday, June 11, 2009
The way it was and the way it will be.
I am learning two main things it seems, during this season of relative rest. The same theme echos from the depths of each: they way things were before is not how they will be. Just because that is the way it has always been, does not mean God wants me to keep doing it that way.
Friendship, for example. My dear friend Mandy and I had a very eye-opening, pinnical conversation about such just yesterday. The role I have always played in my friendships is not necessarily the role I will play for all time. I believe God has it established for me to have a best friend, one to share the little, the big, the ins and the outs of EVERYDAY life with. I have never had that, to my knowledge, for whatever reason. Undeserving? Afraid of being too exposed and vulnerable to do that kind of life with another? Fear of rejection? WHO KNOWS? Nonetheless, I have not been the best-friend kind. Until now. I feel like I am in the throws of that very kind of friendship being established and formed for all time. Scary but exciting. I am confident that God is doing a new thing in me and this area of my life, for the purpose of blessing me beyond measure. God, and Mandy are graciously teaching me how to be a new kind of friend. Not that I am a bad friend at all. Just a different kind of friend. Wild! We will see what unfolds as we walk this new path, a road less traveled by this willing woman.
Love is the other area of change taking place. Love is patient, love is kind, love covers over wrongdoings, love is steadfast, love is God. If God is in me, then love resides there as well. If so, why do I not love the way the spirit in me is equipped to love? Yes, I am a sinner, saved by grace. "Pracitice, dear Child, practice!" I hear Him say. Loving the way I am equipped to love takes practice. It takes intention, discipline, longing and purpose. I am good at loving some people all the time and all people some of the time, but I want to love richly all people all the time. Is that too much to ask? It can't be. Jesus did. He says I can ask whatever in His name and it will be. I have not always been a woman of intentional love....until God asked me "Why are you so passionate about serving and teaching in my kingdoms name, but have not love for my kingdom?" "I don't know, God, good question!" Before I carry the marks of a woman of wisdom and knowledge, may I be a woman of LOVE! I want to love intentionally even if I don't feel like it, for the purpose that GOD might be seen and receive the glory He alone deserves. He has spoken with me about this, I believe, so now it is time to take what He is working in me and do something about it. Hearing it is NOT enough, that is merely one step in the process. Application and transformation is next. So...lets see how this shakes out.
Who I was, is not who I am to be. Thank you, God, for that!
Friendship, for example. My dear friend Mandy and I had a very eye-opening, pinnical conversation about such just yesterday. The role I have always played in my friendships is not necessarily the role I will play for all time. I believe God has it established for me to have a best friend, one to share the little, the big, the ins and the outs of EVERYDAY life with. I have never had that, to my knowledge, for whatever reason. Undeserving? Afraid of being too exposed and vulnerable to do that kind of life with another? Fear of rejection? WHO KNOWS? Nonetheless, I have not been the best-friend kind. Until now. I feel like I am in the throws of that very kind of friendship being established and formed for all time. Scary but exciting. I am confident that God is doing a new thing in me and this area of my life, for the purpose of blessing me beyond measure. God, and Mandy are graciously teaching me how to be a new kind of friend. Not that I am a bad friend at all. Just a different kind of friend. Wild! We will see what unfolds as we walk this new path, a road less traveled by this willing woman.
Love is the other area of change taking place. Love is patient, love is kind, love covers over wrongdoings, love is steadfast, love is God. If God is in me, then love resides there as well. If so, why do I not love the way the spirit in me is equipped to love? Yes, I am a sinner, saved by grace. "Pracitice, dear Child, practice!" I hear Him say. Loving the way I am equipped to love takes practice. It takes intention, discipline, longing and purpose. I am good at loving some people all the time and all people some of the time, but I want to love richly all people all the time. Is that too much to ask? It can't be. Jesus did. He says I can ask whatever in His name and it will be. I have not always been a woman of intentional love....until God asked me "Why are you so passionate about serving and teaching in my kingdoms name, but have not love for my kingdom?" "I don't know, God, good question!" Before I carry the marks of a woman of wisdom and knowledge, may I be a woman of LOVE! I want to love intentionally even if I don't feel like it, for the purpose that GOD might be seen and receive the glory He alone deserves. He has spoken with me about this, I believe, so now it is time to take what He is working in me and do something about it. Hearing it is NOT enough, that is merely one step in the process. Application and transformation is next. So...lets see how this shakes out.
Who I was, is not who I am to be. Thank you, God, for that!
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